Still Unreal

Even a year later it seems surreal that he's gone. I remember exactly where I was and what I was doing when I heard the news. Here we are, a year later and I still don't believe it and I don't feel any better about it. I can only imagine what his kids are going through. I know what its like to lose a parent, but to lose someone whom they would have spent almost every hour of every day with for all of their young lives is unfathomable. I still can't watch him in motion without welling up a bit. I can't look at him as the entertainer he is, the life force he gave and picture him forever motionless and decaying, never to sing another song, never put on another show. Never again. Even as I write this it doesn't all mesh together in my head. But I know he's gone. His life is over and I will never see him move as he is...only as he was. But it still doesn't seem real. Its been 1 year. 365 days. Yet I remember it like it was yesterday. It still doesn't seem real.